delayed muscles? ~.~

yesterday went to the gym at my house with kin weng...

and this morning only start feeling the sore on my muscle lols

after gym-ing thn he say wan go swim but i didnt cuz i lazy haha

he swim half way thn suddenly tell me got dead bird in the pool...wtf ><

poor dead bird :\ still very young de..no feather..

i wonder why girls always never make a move first...

why do thy always have to wait for guys to make a move? ==

even if the guy makes his move..she doenst reply at all zzz

haiz....

tmr going centerpoint yumcha with weng and soh poh samantha xD jkjk

thn hopefully i get to sit down and talk to HER ba...its been so long since we talked :\

few months maybe...

Chickened Out D:

i dono why i suddenly dont feel like working...

i changed my mind the last minute maybe cause I'm scared :\

i never experienced it b4...and its something i'm really really uncomfortable with..haiz

i feel like me and her starting to text a lil bit more <3

but i dono whn can i see her again =(

we live so near yet so far ><

last week i only have a glimpse of her..

but its satisfying for me

i think im going crazy over her..

always thinking about her

dreaming about her

wish can hold u in my arms rite now and can play with your finger haha

(Insert random words here)

Yesterday started talking with Kah Ai about me and my gf first de...

thn ended up we argue =(

That night b4 i go out to yumcha with friends i saw a sms from HER! <3

she say 'Goodnight. Sleep early arh.' ^.^

i get too happy about small things =.=

the feeling is really nice when someone you love suddenly text u

but i always hate it when she type ttyl when its always i talk to her later...

its more like she mean ttml zzz

saw her tweet saying ' when only u can stop showing me yr childishness? i hate childish ppl between. -_-'

which is me i assume :\

maybe i am childish...i don't want to grow up so fast! i still wanna be a kid and enjoy

today went to The Curve with my sister to find job D: 1st time

abit scared scared cuz i never work b4

ask few shops only..thn i go in Secret Recipe to ask for a job vacancy lo..she straight give me paper and fill in form o_O

after filling in the form she ask me wait...wait kinda long thn she come interview me d..eeks ><

5bucks per hour...better thn nothing rite? :\ thn whn interviewing she ask if my parents let me work anot..got transport anot...thn she say '1thing i wanna say is...your hair. we will give u cap to wear but hide your hair.' LOL!!!!!

but b4 tht i saw a shop..looks nice and classy. my sis say tht restaurant is linked to the hotel de..whn i ask them for job vacancy, thy ask me to come back tmr on office hours. ><

if thy only let 18+ year old ppl work thn i'll be working at Secret Recipe ba...

after finding job d thn me and sis walk back...so tiring! =.= why must my condo be on top the hill?! ><

we tapau dinner to hospital to visit my mummy =) she looks fine hehe very happy de lols not those sick sick mau mati punya patient ><

thn my cousins came and visit her lo

thn the same guai lan cousin from australia(kee chong) kacau me again about my gf =.=

he say 'where your gf? why never bring again?' thn i just shy shy speechless and smile lo

thn he continue say 'i even know her name.' thn say ask my mum if she know my gf name anot

my mum just say 'haiya. bring for wat? if relationship serious de only bring come see me' LOL!

i left my com out whn i go visit my mum..whn i come back i saw samantha skype me and say 'IM SO THE HAPPY' o_O i text both of her number and no reply...and i have no clue why she so happy...im so CURIOUS!!!!!!!!!

Skyping with Yi Lin now :\

(Insert random title here)

Me and you are like getting further and further apart :\

I dont know why...but I just feel like you are treating me really coldly

I always saw your comments to other people so much different then the way you chat with me

the other day i skyped with my frens and they were asking me why i dont want to break up with you

And I told them I'll just wait and see how it goes along...

but honestly I dont want to make the same mistakes I did last time..breaking up then regreting

I really like you alot and if possible...I dont wanna let you go

Last time I always easily get jealous and angry...so i tried to change for you

Sometimes I still get a little bit jealous but I just acted like nothing happen

I dont know when can I see you again...I really really missed you

I finally understand how my dad feels

On the way to the hospital,me,sis and dad.

i forget how but my dad and sis started argue-ing

as usual and always i just keep quiet and llisten

my dad say my mum always stress cuz she asked us to do chores we always oso delay but we get it done

and my sister as always..defended me and told my dad what my mum told her the past few days

she say that I was always stressing her out but she was wrong

its all in her head only. she ask me to clean the wax on the floor I say wait but i still do it

and my mum told my sis that i was a good kid

just by knowing my mum say that i was a good kid i got so..erm happy? till i cried

cuz my parents are ALWAYS saying that i always never help out at home and always scold me

as usual my dad as always hard headed..

he just keep scolding say my mum stress cuz she saw my dad asking us to do thing and we delay, ending up my dad always angry

and i didnt know this...i always thought my dad cant sleep cuz its his personality

but when my sis and dad argueing in the car my dad opened up and tell alot things

but he was having financial problems...as a kid i dont know anything about it

but he said that he need to sell his properties and gold chain(from my grandfather) to support us

I've always hated him for I dont know what reason...But I never knew my dad was always this stress...he always cant sleep cuz his been thinking about ideas how to make his business grow bigger.

Maybe I dont want to go college and just start working my way up to be a chef..sure it will be hard to climb up but at least i can ease his burdens rite? maybe? I dont know..

my mum's surgery today is successful ^^

i was thinking i take a cab there by myself to visit her maybe tmr =)

Stop with the tears, wipe your eyes, clear your head. If he doesn't care, he's not worth all the pain.

Hello, its me again, Sam, to help Ryan blog here. Once again, dramas happened between me and his best friend. And he choose to leave this game, so, we're officially game over 1 month ago which is after a pool party to celebrate friend's and my belated birthday over classmate's house. To say the truth, I have no idea why did things turned out like this today. All i can say is, I do really love this boy eventho the feelings of him toward me has gone. I'm here to wish all the best for him, get a new girlfriend that knows him really well one day later and willing to treat him good like he's the most manja baby in the world and I'm satisfied. But right now, I really, don't know how to face this boy anymore. He can't just expect me to pretend like there's nothing happened and talk to him like usual. Stop telling me I'm just like your sister. I hate listening to this because you'll never know how much does it hurts me.

P.S : Ryan, you need to stay strong about the problems. Everything will be fine. You know what is it ;) I'm always here for you.

Haiz...i dont know what to do

Maybe I've been thinking too much lately
so i tried to start all over again with my gf =)
small talks and all those things...even just a small reply from her or a random comment i feel happy enough ^^

haiz...
samantha this few days not happy :\
cuz danny texted her when she is trying to forget him
she always help me thru my relationship or life probs..
but i cant even help her with just a small thing D:

Valentine's day is coming soon! ^^
hope she free on tht day ba
and...
also my mum's surgery...
she will be staying in the hospital on the 15th thn go for surgery on the 16th
i just hope tht the surgery go smoothly

going out to yumcha with WaiLeong! lols 2am now xD

so tired ahhhhhhhh...

i like to update my blog whn everyone think its dead ^.^
haha
cuz i'm always alone :\ i prefer typing out my feelings whn no one reading it hehe

this song describes me

So awkward...

Yesterday we went my aunt's house cuz my cousin going back to australia
Thn my sis bring her bf along lo...after my sis introed her bf to the family
thn my cousin KeeChong look at me for few secs..thn ask me 'your gf leh? har? at fb always see u in a relationship this this that that' OMG! ><
didnt know my cousins ntg to do at australia thn see my fb :\

Finally we chat for quite a long time ^^
thn b4 she went to do her hw she called me bibi
aww..my heart felt so warm hahahaha i know I'm weird
cuz because of tht 1word it makes me not as emo as i was
hahaha

p.s. I Love You Rachel <3