tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37568772195065911192023-11-16T15:57:14.587+08:00My Miserable Lifedeathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.comBlogger55125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-22005690013988174602022-06-06T01:23:00.002+08:002022-06-06T01:23:43.802+08:0010 years later...<p> i just want to give up on everything...</p>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-90154976469098325162012-09-01T03:26:00.001+08:002012-09-01T03:26:28.042+08:00Its been so longBlogging is more like my diary.<br />
After so long I finally read back my posts few months ago<br />
I was so afraid that I cant adapt to my college life but...it turns out totally different haha<br />
It was quite a fun time during my 1st semester ^^<br />
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Looking back at my old posts<br />
Am I really that in love with her last time? :\ I keep asking myself whats so special about her than the others...I don't even know the answer to that...<br />
I remember 1 of my friend ask me what TYPE of girl I like..hmm...I don't know :\ as long as the timing is right i guess...<br />
thinking back about high school...all I know is play and not think about the future (sigh) such a fun time...<br />
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Watched PEARL HARBOR in the afternoon just now...And its so sad to watch :\ no matter how many times I watch it...its still nice =)<br />
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My semester 2 is starting soon, looking forward for those kitchen classes ^^<br />
<br />deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-92015734670101507832012-04-23T22:02:00.000+08:002012-04-23T22:02:42.555+08:00I had so many dreams about you and me, happy endings, now I know. That i'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: red; font-size: x-large;"><b>SURPRISE</b></span>,<b><span style="color: lime;"> RYAN POON</span></b>? <span style="color: yellow;"><b>MY B1 :D</b></span></div>
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<b>bye. :D</b></div>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-50776654767014812312012-04-06T21:39:00.001+08:002012-04-06T21:39:24.886+08:00Love you guys ^^One day trip.<div>
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But most probably will lost contact during college days :\ hope not</div>
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love all of you guys!!!</div>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-15713576467001387322012-03-28T01:14:00.000+08:002012-03-28T01:14:10.104+08:00*Poof*Hmm..i upgraded my blog..thn can see view counters =D<br />
and i dont know why..<br />
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wth? ~.~<br />
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well...at least i know i'm not blogging to the air xD<br />
<br />deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-78934285197751930202012-03-26T05:26:00.003+08:002012-03-26T05:31:41.375+08:00So sad....<span ><span style="font-size: 100%;">Its 5:25am =.=</span></span><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">don't know why i cant sleep</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">so i just surf youtube. i subscribed to this guy who tell his stories while playing maplestory...</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">i know i know...you probably saying this 'maplestory? wtf? small boy ah?'</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">i like listening to his stories..its sometimes nice! and kinda funny ^^</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">anyways..i stumble upon this video...and its a really really sad video...</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">i actually erm..kinda..tear-ish :\ shut up! i have feelings too! D: dont judge me! lol</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">here's the vid</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">don't have to watch the video..just listen..</div><div><span ><iframe width="420" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/39GFzxde7ng" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe></span></div>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-31016596480350468172012-03-26T00:16:00.002+08:002012-03-26T00:49:02.247+08:00CollegeNew enviroment, new friends...<div>Hopefully still will keep in touch with my current friends</div><div>so everytime I hang out with them, I will hang out like its the last time that I will ever see them</div><div>I forget where I heard this before 'Live like its your last day' << i prefer this then 'Live life to its fullest' cuz its much more meaningful and easy to understand</div><div>Life...what is life? how can I live life to its fullest when I don't even understand the meaning of it?</div><div><br /></div><div>Few more days then my mum have to go for her chemotherapy...</div><div>Hopefully during those 5years nothing bad will happen ba</div><div>because i haven't make her proud of me</div><div>all this years the most closest to me is my mum</div><div>I always talk to her about stuffs. Stuffs that I don't talk to my dad or bro</div><div><br /></div><div>Its funny how time really can change someone</div><div>I used to really hate my dad</div><div>But now I seriously appreciate him more then ever</div><div>Without him maybe I will just blur blur study shitty things that I don't give a fuck about and everyday working like lifeless dog without passion or anything..just blurface work all the way</div><div><br /></div><div>Pa and Ma..1day I will make you guys proud of me. I know I always lets u guys down all this years of studying because I no interest in what i studying.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span >And now I'm studying culinary. Something that I really have interest in.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span >I owe this all to MIKE. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span >When I was 10/11</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span >I was amazed that guys can cook other then instant noodles LOL</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span >1st time and the last time I see you cook is Tomato Fried Rice</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span >And just because of that simple thing</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span >I loved cooking..although I'm not good at it because I don't really have the utensils for it :\</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span ><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: left;">That day I texted you and say I wanted to start over again with you</div><div style="text-align: left;">and you kept saying I was drunk</div><div style="text-align: left;">I know you know I wasn't joking about it</div><div style="text-align: left;">I guess...I really make you lose your trust in me...</div><div style="text-align: left;">the next day when I woke up, weng and wai leong still sleeping</div><div style="text-align: left;">I saw my scar and it reminds me of you, then I got really upset and kept thinking why did I leave you that time...so i just keep drinking only :\</div><div style="text-align: left;">But atleast this scars remind me to don't judge someone so fast..especially my girlfriend</div><div style="text-align: left;">so I owe it to you and I'm sorry that you have to be that girl that I've hurt to make me realize that I was wrong.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-18925863750023669892012-03-24T00:59:00.003+08:002012-03-24T01:06:05.706+08:0021st March 2012 :)<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; ">It's Sam here to help Ryan to blog. I'm so the super duper sleepy already and he's forcing me to blog for him. Danggggg -.- Anyway, had a great day&night with Ryan and the bunch of best friends at Eastin Hotel on spm results day :) Sometimes, a small party with just few of your best friends is much more fun than having a big party with a bunch of not so close friends. Me and Ryan got addicted into mixing drinks, the bartender wanna be, haha! Miss that night, the games and the drinks already btw :/ Thanks for accompanied me to somewhere in the middle of night, you know where. :) Hopefully there's gonna be a night like this again! </span></div><div style="text-align: center;font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span ><u><br /></u></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span ><u><br /></u></span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhfiVu979azp2YddFRG-l6dmNXLX-T4Md79W0hTupNQ2Tr5jJjGnppFPeS9g0JE8GdIw026DQ2yO85AWXcyOEzIQKfAPXzah_PZL0lwPUSIvxqtfGnBVqsLSkzZ6OWByOlVehDO9n343KOC/s400/IMG_1460.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5723139420044150514" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium; color: rgb(0, 0, 238); text-decoration: underline; display: block; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: auto; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: auto; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 300px; height: 400px; " /></div><div style="text-align: center;font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">New toys :P</div><div style="text-align: center;font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><br /></div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgTx5CYVsG5NjlWHRx62VG8Kq5StkhhfziTzaEwrolzy-ESS4TiONVCZLU_spia4N61PONFE9SNao0bNqk45TOxf1uHuN5JfQI9hdeitKgAfq-Hqu6TH5n5LlmsdHFXbkY-UXx8hyCKz8bd/s1600/553724_379296788756884_100000296978202_1333031_696821250_n.jpg" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgTx5CYVsG5NjlWHRx62VG8Kq5StkhhfziTzaEwrolzy-ESS4TiONVCZLU_spia4N61PONFE9SNao0bNqk45TOxf1uHuN5JfQI9hdeitKgAfq-Hqu6TH5n5LlmsdHFXbkY-UXx8hyCKz8bd/s400/553724_379296788756884_100000296978202_1333031_696821250_n.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5723138414838485538" /></a><div style="text-align: center;">Stupid face :D</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWh_-wLLAVqukbIfPYnLfzJyfp0rTkInlcGxN_SOMpqhvHjfWnCF1yqTL0SvuM_rsYx2oSCaSPU_LiBCq2_Kauu_4hoMNF7ANGpXpnqZDt_O0_69wR_PZeSd0NsvuBXj-ZnYLx33R4DUvJ/s1600/378561_312855572067673_100000296978202_1141243_700010797_n.jpg" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWh_-wLLAVqukbIfPYnLfzJyfp0rTkInlcGxN_SOMpqhvHjfWnCF1yqTL0SvuM_rsYx2oSCaSPU_LiBCq2_Kauu_4hoMNF7ANGpXpnqZDt_O0_69wR_PZeSd0NsvuBXj-ZnYLx33R4DUvJ/s400/378561_312855572067673_100000296978202_1141243_700010797_n.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5723138409164749986" /></a><div style="text-align: center;">At the park of Damansara Idaman in the middle of night. -.-</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Good night.</div>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-64227329945495655852012-03-21T09:04:00.000+08:002012-03-21T09:05:08.163+08:00The song just for you!<span ><span style="font-size: 100%;">For sammy ^^</span></span><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><br /></div><div><span ><iframe width="560" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/KjBl_xtlMC0" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe></span></div>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-69177010893745643502012-03-21T08:56:00.002+08:002012-03-21T08:58:55.317+08:00GG!Continue study or Work.<div><br /></div><div>all depends on result :\</div><div><br /></div><div>if later i going out with sam they all..</div><div>play like theres no tmr</div><div>play like I'm not going to see them for a long time</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Stop asking me to cut my hair please! TQ ^^</div>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-1022420118199724692012-03-10T10:43:00.002+08:002012-03-10T10:56:57.056+08:00Finally did it :\after so long..<div>my friends keep saying that i should break up but i keep waiting hope you will notice that i'm still there...but i guessed not D:</div><div>i think i send quite a long msg to break up lols</div><div>good? bad? who cares rite? its over haha</div><div><br /></div><div>texted her(not exgf) yesterday but i think she stressed gua :\</div><div>dont really dare to talk to her anymore cuz last few weeks she very very VERY angry at me</div><div><br /></div><div>just woke up then i saw sam's tweet D:</div><div>everyone have secrets...tried to hint u to give up liao...</div><div>so stop torturing yourself k? no more bf/gf..friends will always be there for you =)</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-38951031578402226872012-03-04T09:17:00.003+08:002012-03-04T09:34:39.537+08:00...DAFUQ?!<span ><span style="font-size: 100%;">D: i always look around me..im getting so paranoid...</span></span><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">someone is stalking me :'( </div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">her name is Samantha Cheng..beware!</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">lol jkjk</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">last thursday went out with sam,weng and sharma ^.^</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">its really nice to see them after so long haha</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">i cant really remember why...but dono what they say then I emo</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">so i went to buy ciggy</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">mana tau 1day I smoke so much :\ more thn 10sticks d..omg</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">say Rachel at mcd oso =) wanted to hug her but it will feel awkward D: so i didnt</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">she like dowan talk to me only..haiz</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">what kind of relationship am I in?</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">yesterday I read her blog...</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">and it fucking annoys me that she write xxx is gentleman? and not falling for him?</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">seriously? are you fucking kidding me? == </div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">if your not falling for him then write the name la</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">b4 I couple with you..I know this day will come..</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">and yet I still chose to be with you</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">thought you might be the one...haiz</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">and you wrote that you hope your phone stop receiving messages cuz you want to study</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">sure thats why I rarely even text you cuz your always studying..which is good</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">but when your not...do you even have the slightest thought of me in your head?</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">I guess not...</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">My friends always say your not appreciating me and blablabla</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">do you know why I ignore them although their my bestfriends?</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">cuz I fucking love you..dont you see? i guess not rite? </div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; ">is it the end of our relationship? should I end it? should I wait? I seriously dont know..</span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">I leave it all to you</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><br /></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; ">listening to this song when writing this post lols <3</div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><br /></div><div><span ><iframe width="420" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/ZBiRjCQzL3c" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe></span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><br /></div>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-72442561850281324642012-02-29T11:25:00.002+08:002012-02-29T11:31:09.062+08:00delayed muscles? ~.~yesterday went to the gym at my house with kin weng...<div>and this morning only start feeling the sore on my muscle lols</div><div> after gym-ing thn he say wan go swim but i didnt cuz i lazy haha</div><div>he swim half way thn suddenly tell me got dead bird in the pool...wtf ><</div><div>poor dead bird :\ still very young de..no feather..</div><div><br /></div><div>i wonder why girls always never make a move first...</div><div>why do thy always have to wait for guys to make a move? ==</div><div>even if the guy makes his move..she doenst reply at all zzz</div><div>haiz....</div><div><br /></div><div>tmr going centerpoint yumcha with weng and soh poh samantha xD jkjk</div><div>thn hopefully i get to sit down and talk to HER ba...its been so long since we talked :\</div><div>few months maybe...</div>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-86201477710800870042012-02-24T01:31:00.002+08:002012-02-24T01:38:02.509+08:00Chickened Out D:i dono why i suddenly dont feel like working...<div>i changed my mind the last minute maybe cause I'm scared :\</div><div>i never experienced it b4...and its something i'm really really uncomfortable with..haiz</div><div><br /></div><div>i feel like me and her starting to text a lil bit more <3</div><div>but i dono whn can i see her again =( </div><div>we live so near yet so far ><</div><div><span style="font-size: 100%; ">last week i only have a glimpse of her..</span></div><div>but its satisfying for me</div><div>i think im going crazy over her..</div><div>always thinking about her</div><div>dreaming about her</div><div>wish can hold u in my arms rite now and can play with your finger haha</div>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-76651202125208068232012-02-19T22:17:00.002+08:002012-02-19T22:44:27.702+08:00(Insert random words here)<span style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="font-size: 100%; " >Yesterday started talking with Kah Ai about me and my gf first de...</span></span><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span >thn ended up we argue =(</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span ><br /></span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span >That night b4 i go out to yumcha with friends i saw a sms from HER! <3</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span >she say 'Goodnight. Sleep early arh.' ^.^</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span >i get too happy about small things =.=</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span >the feeling is really nice when someone you love suddenly text u </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span >but i always hate it when she type ttyl when its always i talk to her later...</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span >its more like she mean ttml zzz</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span ><br /></span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span >saw her tweet saying ' <span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; ">when only u can stop showing me yr childishness? i hate childish ppl between. -_-'</span></span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; " >which is me i assume :\</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; " >maybe i am childish...i don't want to grow up so fast! i still wanna be a kid and enjoy</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; " ><br /></span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; " >today went to The Curve with my sister to find job D: 1st time</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; " >abit scared scared cuz i never work b4</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; " >ask few shops only..thn i go in Secret Recipe to ask for a job vacancy lo..she straight give me paper and fill in form o_O</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; " >after filling in the form she ask me wait...wait kinda long thn she come interview me d..eeks ><</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; " >5bucks per hour...better thn nothing rite? :\ thn whn interviewing she ask if my parents let me work anot..got transport anot...thn she say '1thing i wanna say is...your hair. we will give u cap to wear but hide your hair.' LOL!!!!! </span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; " >but b4 tht i saw a shop..looks nice and classy. my sis say tht restaurant is linked to the hotel de..whn i ask them for job vacancy, thy ask me to come back tmr on office hours. ><</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; " >if thy only let 18+ year old ppl work thn i'll be working at Secret Recipe ba...</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; " ><br /></span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; " >after finding job d thn me and sis walk back...so tiring! =.= why must my condo be on top the hill?! ><</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; " >we tapau dinner to hospital to visit my mummy =) she looks fine hehe very happy de lols not those sick sick mau mati punya patient ><</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; " >thn my cousins came and visit her lo</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; " >thn the same guai lan cousin from australia(kee chong) kacau me again about my gf =.=</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; " >he say 'where your gf? why never bring again?' thn i just shy shy speechless and smile lo</span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; text-align: -webkit-auto; "><span ><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;" >thn he continue say 'i even know her name.' thn say ask my mum if she know my gf name anot</span></span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; text-align: -webkit-auto; "><span ><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; " >my mum just say 'haiya. bring for wat? if relationship serious de only bring come see me' LOL!</span></span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; text-align: -webkit-auto; "><span ><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; " ><br /></span></span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; text-align: -webkit-auto; "><span ><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; " >i left my com out whn i go visit my mum..whn i come back i saw samantha skype me and say 'IM SO THE HAPPY' o_O i text both of her number and no reply...and i have no clue why she so happy...im so CURIOUS!!!!!!!!!</span></span></div><div style="font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; text-align: -webkit-auto; "><span ><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; " ><br /></span></span></div><div style="text-align: -webkit-auto; "><span ><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px;">Skyping with Yi Lin now :\</span></span></div><div style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; line-height: normal; "><span style="background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255); color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: HelveticaNeue, 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 18px; text-align: -webkit-auto; "><br /></span></div>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-56721395634668148462012-02-16T18:44:00.000+08:002012-02-16T18:56:48.461+08:00(Insert random title here)Me and you are like getting further and further apart :\<div>I dont know why...but I just feel like you are treating me really coldly</div><div>I always saw your comments to other people so much different then the way you chat with me</div><div>the other day i skyped with my frens and they were asking me why i dont want to break up with you</div><div>And I told them I'll just wait and see how it goes along...</div><div>but honestly I dont want to make the same mistakes I did last time..breaking up then regreting</div><div>I really like you alot and if possible...I dont wanna let you go</div><div>Last time I always easily get jealous and angry...so i tried to change for you</div><div>Sometimes I still get a little bit jealous but I just acted like nothing happen</div><div>I dont know when can I see you again...I really really missed you <!--3</div--></div>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-45003337739412316752012-02-16T18:29:00.000+08:002012-02-16T18:43:59.029+08:00I finally understand how my dad feelsOn the way to the hospital,me,sis and dad.<div>i forget how but my dad and sis started argue-ing</div><div>as usual and always i just keep quiet and llisten</div><div>my dad say my mum always stress cuz she asked us to do chores we always oso delay but we get it done</div><div>and my sister as always..defended me and told my dad what my mum told her the past few days</div><div>she say that I was always stressing her out but she was wrong</div><div>its all in her head only. she ask me to clean the wax on the floor I say wait but i still do it</div><div>and my mum told my sis that i was a good kid</div><div>just by knowing my mum say that i was a good kid i got so..erm happy? till i cried</div><div>cuz my parents are ALWAYS saying that i always never help out at home and always scold me</div><div><br /></div><div>as usual my dad as always hard headed..</div><div>he just keep scolding say my mum stress cuz she saw my dad asking us to do thing and we delay, ending up my dad always angry</div><div>and i didnt know this...i always thought my dad cant sleep cuz its his personality</div><div>but when my sis and dad argueing in the car my dad opened up and tell alot things</div><div>but he was having financial problems...as a kid i dont know anything about it</div><div>but he said that he need to sell his properties and gold chain(from my grandfather) to support us</div><div>I've always hated him for I dont know what reason...But I never knew my dad was always this stress...he always cant sleep cuz his been thinking about ideas how to make his business grow bigger.</div><div><br /></div><div>Maybe I dont want to go college and just start working my way up to be a chef..sure it will be hard to climb up but at least i can ease his burdens rite? maybe? I dont know..</div><div><br /></div><div>my mum's surgery today is successful ^^</div><div><br /></div><div>i was thinking i take a cab there by myself to visit her maybe tmr =)</div>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-71696314384332593732012-02-12T20:06:00.000+08:002012-02-12T20:34:25.676+08:00Stop with the tears, wipe your eyes, clear your head. If he doesn't care, he's not worth all the pain.<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgctoslSeXrQVkGtYNhjGLdz6KAs375Ignuu_s_9HDCqRRvScLMgS74UCZSFDiUIFOprSagyAVB252E8YCbMFWajTHMv-5USx3aA3fPhpQpwVlRC6N3oIIbqy8zYgNOq-zEh1zmRWq6FZVv/s1600/tumblr_lkbifjyUUt1qev248o1_500.jpg" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 326px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgctoslSeXrQVkGtYNhjGLdz6KAs375Ignuu_s_9HDCqRRvScLMgS74UCZSFDiUIFOprSagyAVB252E8YCbMFWajTHMv-5USx3aA3fPhpQpwVlRC6N3oIIbqy8zYgNOq-zEh1zmRWq6FZVv/s400/tumblr_lkbifjyUUt1qev248o1_500.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5708219611924434018" /></a><div style="font-style: normal; font-family: Georgia, serif; text-align: center; "><span><br /></span></div><div style="font-style: normal; font-family: Georgia, serif; text-align: center; "><span>Hello, its me again, Sam, to help <span >Ryan </span>blog here. Once again, dramas happened between me and his best friend. And he choose to leave this game, so, we're officially game over 1 month ago which is after a pool party to celebrate friend's and my belated birthday over classmate's house. To say the truth, I have no idea why did things turned out like this today. All i can say is, I do really love this boy eventho the feelings of him toward me has gone. I'm here to wish all the best for him, get a new girlfriend that knows him really well one day later and willing to treat him good like he's the most manja baby in the world and I'm satisfied. But right now, I really, don't know how to face this boy anymore. He can't just expect me to pretend like there's nothing happened and talk to him like usual. Stop telling me I'm just like your sister. I hate listening to this because you'll never know how much does it hurts me. </span></div><div style="font-style: normal; font-family: Georgia, serif; text-align: center; "><span><br /></span></div><div style="font-style: normal; font-family: Georgia, serif; text-align: center; "><span><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center; "><span ><i><span>P.S : Ryan, you need to stay strong about the</span><span> problems. Everything will be fine. You know what is it ;) I'm always here for you.</span></i></span></div>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-76993267337076509852012-02-11T01:55:00.000+08:002012-02-11T02:01:49.156+08:00Haiz...i dont know what to doMaybe I've been thinking too much lately<br />so i tried to start all over again with my gf =) <br />small talks and all those things...even just a small reply from her or a random comment i feel happy enough ^^<br /><br />haiz...<br />samantha this few days not happy :\<br />cuz danny texted her when she is trying to forget him<br />she always help me thru my relationship or life probs..<br />but i cant even help her with just a small thing D:<br /><br />Valentine's day is coming soon! ^^<br />hope she free on tht day ba<br />and...<br />also my mum's surgery...<br />she will be staying in the hospital on the 15th thn go for surgery on the 16th<br />i just hope tht the surgery go smoothly<br /><br />going out to yumcha with WaiLeong! lols 2am now xDdeathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-18243796577121836732012-02-01T23:28:00.000+08:002012-02-01T23:30:10.273+08:00so tired ahhhhhhhh...i like to update my blog whn everyone think its dead ^.^<br />haha<br />cuz i'm always alone :\ i prefer typing out my feelings whn no one reading it hehe<br /><br />this song describes me <br /><iframe width="560" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/UJRVo9OnUJ0" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-65102273613962765642012-02-01T11:51:00.000+08:002012-02-01T11:58:05.792+08:00So awkward...Yesterday we went my aunt's house cuz my cousin going back to australia<br />Thn my sis bring her bf along lo...after my sis introed her bf to the family<br />thn my cousin KeeChong look at me for few secs..thn ask me 'your gf leh? har? at fb always see u in a relationship this this that that' OMG! ><<br />didnt know my cousins ntg to do at australia thn see my fb :\<br /><br />Finally we chat for quite a long time ^^<br />thn b4 she went to do her hw she called me bibi<br />aww..my heart felt so warm hahahaha i know I'm weird<br />cuz because of tht 1word it makes me not as emo as i was <br />hahaha<br /><br />p.s. I Love You Rachel <3deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-54382273961644276092012-01-30T03:39:00.000+08:002012-01-30T03:44:34.108+08:00What a bad year :'(so so many unlucky things happen this year<br />but i never got the chance to chat with u to tell u :\<br />i know your always busy and its kinda selfish asking this but...<br />can u teman me more? =( <br />i really really miss u..<br />its been so long since i chat with u properly..<br />always oso chat few mins only thn i gtg d<br /><br />i just wish and pray tht my mum gets better..<br />hopefully she doesnt need surgery </3<br /><br />its just the start of the year and all this things are happening..<br />*sigh*deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-9827733149586197892012-01-17T04:16:00.000+08:002012-01-17T04:33:36.193+08:00I Miss You.....this few weeks we didnt really chat as much as we used to<br />i know its not your fault. i know your busy with your hw and all =)<br />i know your trying very hard to get good results cuz u promised your bro and sis<br />but i feel so sad seeing u always tired everytime u come back from skool<br /><br />i read your blog tht day..i'm guessing your saying your grandpa?<br />u are his granddaughter ma..let him celebrate together only lo....<br />maybe i don understand all this celebrating things cuz i never liked thm :\ <br />just saying...<br /><br />i miss the feeling of u being beside me and being able to hold u<br />miss it so much =(<br /><br />actually i've been waiting for tht day to go out with u on the 14th de...<br />wait till so happy but u say cancel... tht time i'm actually really really sad D:<br /><br />i get really really jealous about small things..i dont know why<br />i just tend to ignore it and never know about it<br />cuz i dont wanna lose u cuz of jealousy<br /><br />sometimes whn i dont text u..cuz i sometimes dono wat to talk about<br />sorry =( don angry me about it k?<br /><br />this song for u <3<br /><iframe width="480" height="270" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/EDv7efxb4No?fs=1" frameborder="0" allowFullScreen=""></iframe><br />i love u bibi =)deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-74862681472748888332011-12-19T00:58:00.000+08:002011-12-19T01:02:12.512+08:00:\Why do I always get jealous of stupid things?<br />hmmm...<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />If i love her...should I not be jealous or the other way round? :\deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3756877219506591119.post-48332108269692948842011-12-17T13:18:00.000+08:002011-12-17T13:19:56.025+08:00Rawr~!<div style="text-align: left;">I always deny that I have feelings you since the beginning</div><div style="text-align: left;">But now that I have you..</div><div style="text-align: left;">I don't have to hide my feelings anymore ^^</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">I LOVE YOU!!!</div>deathangel2142http://www.blogger.com/profile/14648770511587738201noreply@blogger.com0